Friday, February 18, 2011
I’m struggling with my faith…
This faith has always been tied inextricably to the Gospel of the Restoration. The Gospel’s principles ring true in my core; its precepts provide me direction and ultimately, comfort. They help me understand God’s nature, his purpose, and my divine inheritance. Through this understanding, my faith has been a tremendous source of strength and insight.
But now I am separated from the Church. My bishop doesn’t know what to do with me. My LDS neighbors feel uncomfortable around me. Unfortunately, when I’m involved in Church activities, I feel utterly alone.
This leads to the central issue with which I’m struggling.
How do I maintain a spiritual connection with Heavenly Father while feeling estranged from his Church?
In my effort to find a way, I’ve considered attending other churches, congregations more accepting of homosexuality. While those groups have shown themselves to be kind and supportive examples of the Savior and his love, they fail to offer me the spiritual foundation and support to which I am accustomed.
Perhaps my dilemma is insoluble. Only time will tell. But I will continue to have confidence in God’s love and my divine nature.
Ultimately, I have to continue to believe that he will guide my path step by step and provide me strength to do that which is right in his sight. I have to have faith that in the end, this struggle and my sense of isolation will be resolved.